HOLY JOURNAL SKINS BATMAN! ... I miss my subscription. ;.;


Also. I've been drawing. A lot. But not posting. What gives?


Fail Ally has failed.

I have a new tablet PC that I got in September. <3

But then I developed what appears to be carpal tunnel. </3




Over-glorified mp3 player, anyone? :/

So today I woke up and came to my desk only to find out that one of Lilah's new sippy cups that she got for her birthday EXPELLS whatever's in it when it's in there for too long and it poured souring milk ALL OVER my tablet last night while we were sleeping.
Basically it's fucked. It wasn't working -at all- when I tried it and now Cliff is trying to preform surgery on it to save it. I know it was childish of me but I actually started to cry when I told him about it cause I knew it was all my stupid fault and I should have picked up the sippy cup before going to bed, and that we probably won't be able to afford another one for like at least 2 years. Bleh, being female sucks sometimes.
On another note I was really enjoying art but due to my lack of pencil sharpener I can't sketch on paper, my tablet is dead, and my mouse is much too much of a spazz (we've been needing to replace that for a while now too). Bleh. I need to go play with the baby, she always cheers me up.

So a few weeks ago now I left a big part of my internet life behind and I've found myself more apt at drawing whatever I want whenever I want, but I lack the courage/ability to post said things. I've really enjoyed drawing, but have yet to post anything more than a simple commission.

Why? I dunno really. I feel sorta dirty having left that place behind, and yet so much more free. And I think it's in that freedom that I feel the most secure. But therein lies the problem, the security of freedom is a blanket only held between freedom and posts IE I'm a lazy slacker someone beat me with a fish and make me put up something.

I just wish it was something worth looking at.

nabbed from step sister ~Manamaraya
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
[x] I hate my dad.
[] I hate my mom.
[x] I have brothers.
[] I have sisters.
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have (more) kids someday.
[x] I've had children.
[?] I've lost a child.
[] I'm in school.
[WANT.] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (Haven't been in school in 3 years)
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[?] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[] I've had chicken pox
[] I was born in a different country.
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[X <333] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[??] I've met someone in person from myspace. (not myspace but okcupid is where I met my husband! )
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.
[] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[x] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[] I miss someone right now.
[] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I'm bi. (just another word for open minded, << Absolutely.)
[] I'm gay.
[x] I've had sex. (Hur hur I HAD A BABY god. what am I, Mary?)
[x] I've had phone sex.
[x] I've cybered.
[x] I've had sex in public.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light. (By accident, and then I cried cause I did XD I FELT SO GUILTY OH GOD)
[] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.(ew)
[] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking. (ewww)
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed. (ew)
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[] I've done hard drugs.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. (My parents really liked getting me on whatever kind of drugs they could...)
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose. (I was a stupid teenager)
[x] I've woken up crying. (many times actually. I have rather frightening dreams sometimes..)
[] I'm afraid of dying.
[] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide. (I didn't like myself or my life between the ages of 13 and 15)
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything.
[] I own a cosplay outfit.
[x] I know what cosplay means.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. (Hahah I still have a few things I bought there in my teens)
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I can sing well. (I was in Chorus so I hope so XD)
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news. (The colbert report and Daily show plz)
[x] I don't kill bugs. (I try not to)
[] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[X!!] I sing in the shower. (Too often XD)
[] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.(when I'm nervous)
[?] I have "x"s in my screen name. (Phoenix is spelled with ONE X.)
[] I love being neat.
[] I love Spam.
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.(Love makes the world a better place)
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. (Actually it's usually Idle that tells you if I'm there or not)
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X!!] I am really ticklish.
[] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces. (But not names!)
[] I'm good at remembering names.
[] I'm good at remembering dates.
[] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[] I loath labels.
[x] I like action movies.
[x] I like horror movies.
[] I like chick flicks.
[x] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before.
[] I can't spell.
[x] I treasure my friends.
[] I think of others before myself.
[x] All of those are answered honestly.


Don't stab me.